Snippets

My Heart

And my heart will do a silent cry for all the reasons that we can’t be together. My heart will ache a little bit for all the things that say we can’t be. And my heart will hide that little space you occupied from the time I knew you. It could have been a bigger space if only you would’ve stayed. If I knew you more than just your name. And my heart will smile at the little things that it remembers you do. And the little things will only be yours. And those little things will be special because you made them to be. And my heart will wish you well. My heart will wish that you find her. Whoever she might be. Because it sure is ain’t me. And we both knew from the moment we met that she is somewhere out there for you. And my heart will be happy for you. But my heart will always wonder what could have been. And my heart will always keep that space for you. A tiny nook that keeps all the special things that, though how short the time, happened.

I miss your epicness.

That Twisted Guy

Him: She got jealous of you.
Me: She shouldn't have.
Him: Why?
Me: She got the guy.
Him: Some twisted guy.
Me: Well, I could have given everything to that twisted guy.
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Anonymous asked: Here's a riddle: "If he was your king / And you were his queen / Where would a childhood friend / Be in that scene?" [gn-sugo lng ni sa akon bala... hihihi.]

I don’t get it. :D haha. I guess he would be visiting my enormous castle. :D

tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

Me dragging a toy yellow truck on the sands of the beach. :))

Lessons

As Paulo Coelho says in a number of his books, it is absolutely necessary to know the end of something in your life. You miss the other miracles and the other opportunities if you are reluctant to let go of the things that are long over and you try to hang on to them despite the hopeless case. It is necessary to close the circle. Shut the door. Whatever you call it. It is necessary in one’s life to know and realize when something is over. Because it is where another amazing experience will begin. We must not be afraid to let go of those things. In the end, we will realize that it was definitely for the best.

HEY YOU.

I actually really like you. And that proves as a threat to me. So I’m more guarded than ever and I’m analyzing your every move. You prove as a threat to the safety and stability that I have already established for myself. So I’m very sorry if you feel like I’m pushing you away. It’s a natural defense mechanism. For me, at the least. It’s just that I really like you. And I’m scared to realize it and just let it be.

Zahir

He is my Zahir. Perhaps he will always occupy my mind until he consumes my every thought. He will always be my Zahir. The thought that will possess me, maybe even make me crazy. Drive me to madness. He will be the reason I ask why. Or the dream that I wished would have came true. The dream I was afraid to chase and will now remain just as it is. He will be the what if that I will never get over. The what if that should have been. He will always plague my thoughts. Linger in my smiles and be the secret in my eyes that no one will ever know. I have found my Zahir. The Zahir that will drive me to the ends of my wits. The Zahir that explains my questions and leaves me with new ones. I have found my Zahir.